Sunday, 14 December 2014

Let it Rain!

Walking back from the lecture hall.
Chattering about the old woman gone senile.

The rain starts to fall on them.
The dry parched land is happy and so are its people.

He takes her hand and they dance.
Its unbridled, pure and complete happiness.

Let it Rain!


Saturday, 13 December 2014

The blank Space

As a child, I would always be great at filling the spaces with the right words. Almost always!

Those were sentences, this is life.
Those were phrases, this is permanence of a phase.
Those I filled, this I can't and may be don't want to.

The blank still stands, the void being all consuming at certain moments. 
There is happiness but it blanks out.
There is excitement but it blanks out.
There is courage but it blanks out.
There is sadness but it doesn't blank out.

Cheers!

Wednesday, 19 November 2014

Saying about 'But'

I met this really handsome of an Australian guy during one of the interactive dialogues. He told this really interesting and apt saying/colloquial phrase from back home.

"Everything that precedes the 'but' in your sentences is crap. What the speaker actually means is what follows the 'but'". 

A little reflection and,

" I started out early but got stuck in traffic."
" I wanted to buy you a gift but couldn't think of the perfect one."
" I wish I could join you for the party but I have work."
" I really love you but I can't stay with you longer."

Just makes plain sense.

Tuesday, 11 November 2014

Those Social Blabbers

I have grown up during the age where i was able to see the evolution of social media. It started with orkut, a world of excitement lay before us. Aah! but our developer friends surprised us sooner. Et voila, Facebook! The blue just took away our blues. (If I may point out, I feel the blue was a thought of color, not just a random pick. Psychology says that the color blue has a calming effect; it causes the brain to release calming hormones.)

There were friends being discovered and added left, right and center. However we posted with caution. But then the freedom grew on us. I had views and I had an online account. So there I am expressing it in full flow. I think you are fat, I post it. I think the aunty next door is a meddler, I voice it. I get a gift ( even 5 buck dairymilk would do, cos the point is expressing louve)from a friend, I post it on facebook, I go to a party, I pose, I post. (Oh! and if I am a girl, I chose to but ofcourse pout).

Then some more technology happened, I got the option of checking in and telling my moods. I go to eat chat, I check in. I take a walk, I check in. I go on my honeymoon, I check in. (I am sure there are few who check in to their bedrooms also). This is just one category. Then there is a huge pseudo thinker clan. I know the social milieu and moor in and out. OH! I am saddened by their misconceptions, their traditions, their awful practices. I for sure know they are wrong. What do I do? I post my very deeply felt dilemma on facebook and wait for my friends to see how deep I am. Just how deep!! If I read newspapers and online articles, I feel I understand the political situation of this country and the government is totally unjust to north east and the government does nothing for J&K. And you don't know a thing. I do, my heart bleeds for my countrymen. 

The most interesting of them are the lovers. Oh, the love! Sadist like me be damned. Such deep profound philosophies I develop, such innately romantic check ins I have and such soulful getaways we undertake. The chocolate/ice cream melts or rather starts to vaporize when I read them.

I do not have a problem with expression. My only point is that it is a moo point if all you is yell or shout out loud (in this case write profusely bleeding articles). You and I have forgotten what it is to stand by the beach and take in the mirth. We have forgotten what it is to give that hand to that protest. We have forgotten what is to be held by a lover. (and not use the other hand for posting!!). Use it to express but not over do it. In words of Peter Parker, "With great power comes great responsibility ". Social media is a tool, use it with caution. 

Life is living in the moment. 

P.S.: All an pervasive Truman Syndrome is more real now than ever before. 


Monday, 10 November 2014

Sleepless nights!

There were days when i turned and saw you.
Now i am afraid to turn.

There is a pillow on the right,
There is a pillow on the left.
I have locked myself.

I dint remember dreams.
I dint need to remember dreams.

I saw only you,
Now I see apparitions.

I heard you, your music.
Now i hear silence, tearing and yelling silence.

I ran for i liked running with you.
I am immobile for i am handicapped.

I lived for I was alive.
and now i breathe, only breathe!!!

Wednesday, 8 October 2014

Reflections on Developing a Photographic Vision

I was reading this article in a photography magazine on "how to develop you photographic vision?". And there just like that I realized that few of those lessons it was not only about photography they were true for real life perspectives too.

Eliminate Distracting Elements: So it says that there are these random elements that poke in from the corner and then your photograph takes a whoop. In our lives we find people who come in for short while and in that short while turn our lives around. Now unlike the author I think that may be these random innocuous objects might actually be adding color and that subtle tinge to our lives and make it my photo of the day (day here is equivalent to an individual's life). So never rule them out just choose to fit them in the frame.

Use only one mode: Ah! this one's my favorite and I couldn't agree more. Today, life has given us so many choices that we forget to appreciate the innate beauty of things. I have a cycle but I cry for a scooter, I have a scooter but I cry for a car, I have a car but I yearn for a chopper and on and on and on.. This never ends. I forget that the cycle keeps me hail and hearty or the motorbike lets me bathe in the breezy wind or the car gives me safety while I drive. I turn a blind eye to everything and cringe for something else. And this true not only for objects but for people too. I have a friend but I yearn for the one gone or the ideal one that I don't have by my side. Why?? Live and explore what is with you right now cos trust you me this moment just passed us. So use one mode, let not the possibility of many kill and complicate your lives.

Switch off review: Touche, my friend! Stop Chimping!! ( thanks for this new word).So chimping ideally in the photographic world refers to the phenomena where I get so lost in reviewing my photos on LCD that the moment passes by. This just fits right into our busy lives. We keep reviewing and re-evaluating all the time. Wait for a while and I am sure the results shall be for yours to see. Carpe diem!

Shoot from within a small bit of space: Constrain yourself to a small space and then try and capture your subject. Well, this ones about trying to maximize that little space, that little resource such that you get your shot, your happiness. Life doesn't serve us dessert on a platter but it does give me a constrained quantity of the creme brulee ingredients and we should try using them to make our own fancy creme brulee. The best that met my palate.

Live, laugh and love!!

P.S.: These are reflections based on an article in the October Issue of "Better Photography". So thanks to them.

Friday, 19 September 2014

Swan Song

There was a golden swan I befriended, it was all ears for anything that I had to say.
Every time it came and sat beside, it would smile and hear my endless stories.

There were times he murmured and told me things.
Things from his imaginary world. It was green and peaceful.

He had envisioned a small nest far from the hustle and bustle of this city.
It was a midst the snow clad mountains. Cosy and warm.

He could fly over as fast as he wanted with no prohibitions..
Fast, very fast..

Just too swiftly you flew and I lost you. We lost you.
You left with no last words, to yourself, to us, to me.

I wish I could have seen you smile one last time. I wish I could I have heard swan song.


 



Monday, 4 August 2014

The Sorry Business

S.O.R.R.Y. There is no other more misused than this prick of a 5 letter word. You and I feel sorry for just about everything and everybody. And we are so generous that we don't even leave ourselves out this sea of pity. It is that one word instant solution to all the wrongs that you and i commit. 

You break a friend's cup, I am sorry. You reach late for a meeting, I am sorry. You forget a birthday, I am sorry. You burst out in anger at someone, I am sorry. You break a heart, well guess what, I am sorry.. But does it really help? Does it soothe either of the two individuals, the one who is sorry and the one has lost something or is hurt or the time that has gone? As, I see NO. Time and Opportunity gone is gone. Mistake done is done. Once broken, the heart shall always be broken, cracked.

I have always felt that there is this divide between being apologetic and saying sorry. Most of the people get over their guilt/mistake/wrongdoing by saying Sorry and not really feeling apologetic. If you break my cup you feel apologetic, you go up get me another Coffee Mug. For till the next one comes in I am mugless. (Apologies for this syllogism but none other comes through to me this time :P) Sometimes i feel i am even not sorry but i only put it forward to make the other person feel better. Isn't this as good as lying?

Saying sorry is the easy way out, what follows is the difficult part. The part where i have to mend my soul, pick the pieces of my heart and try a hand at putting it all altogether. The part where your sorry doesn't even come close to being an adhesive and helping fix the cracked thing/person/situation. The sorry business doesn't help then. If you feel sorry and come forward and make up for what is lost, I would welcome you but not a conch shell like empty Sorry, that does nothing but echo and die out after a while..

Monday, 14 July 2014

The Nomenclature of Relationships

'Mother', the name of the woman who gave birth to me. 'Father' the name of the man who is my mother's partner. Together they became my 'parents'. 'Sister', another offspring of my parents. As I grew on the ladder of age more and more people entered my life and each one had a name: 'Uncle', 'Aunt', 'Friend', 'Lover, 'Enemy'...A name that defined my relation with them. A relation that society had defined not I. My enemy was supposed to be this concocted individual who did not like me for anything and everything that i am. My parents are bound to like me even if i turn into a cold blooded criminal. You love them and you forgive them or at times try and correct their wrong or hide their wrongs. Why? because they are parents and historically and socially you stand by your child. That name tag defines your does and don'ts. Its like an invisible boundary drawn around you and them or you and him/her.

In the early years of my adulthood all of this really din't matter to me but now when i am on the dip-side of adulthood, I feel the lines blurring and the name tags appear hazy. Sisters whom i could bare my soul to have vanished into an unknown land and my girlfriend instead has taken her place. Girlfriend is there when the sister is not. Girlfriend is called when sister should have been. Girlfriend's arrival is more looked forward to than sister. Parental troubles and worries are shared with girlfriend and not even mentioned to sister. So is this person my sister or my girlfriend?? but then why do i name her? I believe she is my person and that is where it ends. 

If one talks of relationships, how does one miss the 'Lover'!! He/She is my confidante. He/She is the person i hate most and with all sincerity wish to get rid of at times. He/She knows what food i like even more than my mother. He/She knows when i need my space. He/She is the one i want to travel with. He/She is the one i want to hold when i come back after a long tiring day. He/She makes me feel comfortable even in the silence between us. In all of the above He/She could be my brother/sister, could be my girlfriend/boyfriend or even could be my father/mother. Then why do i name that one 'Lover'? Why? 

Lovers: This is one relation i wish i could justify the name of. Does physical intimacy make him/her my lover? Does that desire to walk your journey with him/her make him/her your lover? Does the heart wrenching pain you feel at not having him/her by your side make them your lover? Does the ability to be happy in their happiness (even if it cuts you through and through) make them your lover? Or is lover your favorite friend who knows your reds from blues , makes you cry while you laugh, makes you forget your worries, makes you enjoy the journey more than the destination they are going toward, makes your happiness his/her happiness, makes your dreams his/her dreams?? [May be you could give me answers.:P]

In all this drama that the society staged and we enact we forget to live them and get lost in the mazes that life spins around us. So fellas don't name them. Love them! Breathe them! And more than anything bask in them!


Sunday, 4 May 2014

Tirthan Valley

I had two options: Goa and GHNP; and I was swinging between the two. In the end GHNP was picked. (And rightly so as I would find at the end of our trip). On the morning of 4th, we reached Sairopa and were given a very warm welcome by the staff who adorned us with Himachali topis. Our itinerary for the day included a small trek to a water fall followed by rappelling post lunch. The trek to the falls tested our capacities to quite an extent. But once there, boy what view it was! Water falling down from hundreds of meters and creating jet showers all around. We had to cross over the stream which was our first little bump given the catch. The catch was ‘the water’, it was ice cold. Walking on it felt as if someone was poking needles on your sole. I was static in water after my first two steps for my feet had gone numb. Sahil, our guide for the tour informed us that the water at our camp site was chillier than this. We walked back to our guest house, enjoying the nature trail along the way. Next came rappelling and with it came the ‘fear of height’. Our instructor was quiet an expert and made sure we had fun and safe time doing it. As the evening came it was completely different scenery to savor. We were served our sumptuous dinner which was followed by a bonfire, and we sang our way into the nights glory.
Mukundi trying his hand at rappelling
                                          Having a 'break'. :)

Next day, we had an early start as we had to trek all the way to Rola campsite. We were each given our sleeping bags, mats and most importantly our lunch packs. These lunch packs would become our ‘most looked forward to’ item in the next three days. With our bags packed and our spirits charged we were all ready for our trek uphill. With the river flowing on one side of our path we walked soaking in the natural beauty at every nook and corner. There were exotic birds to be spotted as Mr. Ankit Sood had rightly said. The pathways are lined by beautiful flowers of different smells, shapes and sizes. One that is quite common and has the taken its place on the plates of locals is the rhododendron plant. Its red flowers are used to juice, syrups, chutneys, etc. The trek was a challenge in itself. Given our lazed city lives our stamina was low, so we took breaks and admired the scenic beauty around; the serenading river, the gorgeously sitting hippopotamus waterfall, the crooked bridge, etc. We took a total of six hours to reach our camp site (Rolla: 2100m) including our stop for the lunch. Once there we sat by the stream and enjoyed the pleasant pre dawn hours. The beauty was magnified by the birds, some who were in a hurry to return home and some who enjoyed their glide over the river water. As the sun set fire was lit and mats were put around. Thus began a night of reveling the grandiose beauty around us. We were surrounded by mountains on both sides, our site was in the shape of an eye. And just in that moment it was our sky, our river, our land and our fire. And we soaked it all in.
                                          Our tents at Rola campsite
                                         Fireplace at the campsite

Third day brought with it the most arduous trek, trek to Shilt which was at a height of 3100m. It was a steep 65-75 degree climb all along. One big positive was we had no baggage on our backs. Slowly, slowly as we walked we realized that this would be the trek of our lives till date. It tested our strengths, physical and mental to the core. There was clear path, our lead walked ahead and we followed cautiously. With each step we were going up the mountain, further from the river but closer to the snow peaked mountains. Each time one of us saw a panoramic view of the mountains, we yelled. We yelled for it was beautiful, we yelled for nature was smiling at us and we yelled for we were happy at our small yet grand trek. At the end of our some magnificent almost four hour trek we reached SHILT. There are no words to describe the feeling that place gave. It brought in a wave of chilled breeze that settled every worry or trouble that you had brought along the way. For my friend, Minu who comes from the southern part of our country, it stood out like a still from a Bollywood flick. There were small snow masses here and there but we still dint get our true share of snow. After doing a whole lot of photography, eating our lunch, resting, posing, we started to walk down. This was the trickiest part of the trek. One had to be sure to maintain their balance and your shoes were your best friend. As it turned out one of our friend did have a shoe issue. He exchanged one of his shoes with Sahil. What followed was hand holding, sliding, slipping for Meshram(the friend). Thus began different paired shoe walk adding another little story to our wonderful travel story. Slowly and steadily we walked, slided and some glided back to our camp site at Rola. By that time dusk hours had fallen and along came our evening chai and snack. Trust you me at that point of time, it was the most sumptuous snack and tasty tea we could have asked for. Along came the bonfire in sometime and thus began a round of singing and dancing. One of my photographer friends also did a lovely star trail that night. We all lay there away from the noise and troubles of our lives, of our relations, of our studies and of our future and we wanted nothing else, no one more. Just may be another night under our sky or being tucked away in our sleeping bag in our tent.
                                         On our way to Shilt.
                                         Shilt..Serenity..!!

Fourth day we walked back from Rola and it took us a little less than four hours to go downhill. We were put up in a homestay in Naagini. We served a tasty trout fish meal in our dinner. That night saw much story telling in the group and much relaxation of our very tired bodies. On our last day of the travel we were driven up to Jalori pass that stands at a height of 3120m above sea level to see snow, the one thing that we were still chasing. Once there, there was nothing else but snow all around. Glaring, shining and chilling snow. It seemed to have covered everything with its pretty white cover. After doing our bit of walking in the snow we came back, ate a real warm maggi, drank our chaiyas and started on our drive down to Kullu. 
                                         The view at Jalori Pass :)
                                 View at a walking distance from the homestay

The drive was long and we had our rafting scheduled for the evening. But rain played a spoilsport and we couldn’t do our rafting that evening. We decided to try our luck the next morning and as luck would have it, it was a clear sky. We rafted down 13kms. from Pirdi to G.D. It was another thrilling experience with the chilly water splashing on us from all sides. Each rapid excited us and each splash made us happier and drenched our souls.
It was a trip that most of us would remember. WE saw nature and its beauty in its grand form. It tested us, pained us but at the same time thrilled us, excited us, charged us, enthralled us and above all made us feel alive. 
                                                   'US'at Jalori Pass.

I would like to thank Mr Ankit, Mr Panki and their entire team who left no stone unturned to make this trip a much cherished and comfortable one for us. Especial thanks to Sahil for being a wonderful guide and also for those wonderful musical night.

P.S. :
* Go in a group and try containing the size to 10 people at max.
* Keep a pair of sturdy shoes.
* Go with an open spirit and challenge yourself. J

Photo Contributors: Amit Kumar, Aditi Kumar, Apurba Chowdhry, Arjit Anand & Sahil

Saturday, 8 February 2014

Of Love - Drug

Life always surprises you. When you ain't looking for a gift it puts one in your lap. When you wish for no trouble it creates one out of nothing. When you think you know who your friends are it brings the enemy in them out. And when you think love is not a word you know it gives it a whole new dimension in your life.
The definition of LOVE has always eluded me. In fact most definitions elude me. Definitions come with boundaries and i don't get boundaries. Not for something as crazy as love. The definition of crazy sounds like an oxymoron to me. If you love you love like there's no tomorrow. If you love then you love without any rules. If you love you love like crazy. If you love you love without conditions. If you love you shout it out for him/her to hear it out loud and clear. If you love you do not hold back. If you love you let go of all your inhibitions. If you love you trust and free yourself. 
I have always been on the giving end of love in whatever form it was. I believed giving defined love. But for how long could i keep on giving? How long could i not want? Was i correct in defining it as the thing given and not taken in a more than equal share? Not really i guess. 

Love is when he hears you out, love is when i hear the unsaid words in his mind, love is when i smile for no reason but for his presence around me, love is when he lets you be, love is in his honesty, love in his charming demeanor, love is when he holds me. Am sure there is so much more for me to discover in this never ending process. Never ending i hope it is. I hope it surrounds me like the air around me and i breathe in it till i am alive. I hope it makes our lives rosier. I hope it helps us grow together. I hope it helps us keep the kid in us alive. I hope it gives us our bitter share of tiffs to help know each other better. I hope love loves us back.

Cheers to Loving!

Questions

7 rounds around a pious fire. Invocation of gods and goddesses to shower their blessings. Many hymns in praise of almighty and many a verses telling folklore of the sanctity ,importance and value of the relation that would follow are chanted. The relation of man and wife. The relation that marries the two together in a bond. A bond that the society considers unbreakable, one that society considers should be protected and maintained at all costs. Even if it's a mirage. Even if time and again it suffocates the two people in it. But is that marriage's definition?
Well as a person living in the 21st century I thought that all I have said above is an ousted idea for today's intellectual. But when I look closer I find that the sanctum picture of marriage has blurred but the picture still holds onto its old colors. You and I may raise our voices malevolently in opposition of any compromise being made and any suffering being inflicted on either of the partners by the other but when it comes to our own doorsteps then we bend and bend till we can't anymore. We prefer the load than to walk out and find a new life for ourselves. The fear of independence, is it??