An obtuse heart

It has been a long day,
I am tired to the last inch in my body,
I only take that step for it is you at the end of it.

I turn my head and there you are,
Smiling and capturing eyes,
I cringe when I see them.

Having known you all my life, I still don't know you.
You are the lover I don't love.
You are the companion that I don't have.
You are the friend I have kept.

Sometimes it is hard to draw that line between attraction, friendship, love and yearning. I am walking in those narrow lanes. My mind confuses me, my brain nitpicks me and my heart flutters. 

Alas! The stupid heart.

Life being life! Life being a conundrum!